We will all be forgotten long after we pass. And that is precisely why you have every reason to live the life that will make you the most fulfilled.
I write a lot about technology here. But there is no technology more important to a composer than paper. Whether one uses pen or pencil, the use of paper is integral to one's development as a beginning composer and as an advanced one.
As one progresses, one becomes more and more specialized. Coursework selection, private study, extra studies outside of the university, thesis and dissertation all hone one to become less diversified, and more specialized.
One work that has really helped me recently is a text about Buddhism, but if you remove the Buddhist front it really is a text about being in the moment, regardless of your belief system.
It is invigorating to both think quickly, and to use that to accomplish tasks. However, having racing thoughts is much different than thinking quickly.
In this post, I aim to tackle a feeling of powerlessness we feel as musicians, as a metaphor or mirror to anyone who feels powerless.
You can apply mindfulness to all aspects of being a musician. However, the goal is not to become a virtuoso in music through mindfulness.
When one's personal life takes control of one's life, occupying all time and energy there may be to spare, it is hard to find time to make art.